Well, chicos y chicas, the time has come to swing open the corral gate and let this pony go. I've got a couple films I'm trying to usher into production as well as the pointed elbows of another script idea poking me with annoying persistence. I'm afraid it is time to move on.
I've greatly enjoyed writing the Delirious blog and I'm sad to see it end. Through these ramblings I have met an astonishing number of remarkable people. My greatest delight has been in hearing your thoughts and sharing my own with you. Your genuine curiosity, support, honesty and encouragement have been amazing; and they've been invaluable to me.
I have to thank Chioke Nassor for forcing me to write the blog in the first place. Chioke was a complete stranger until he came up to me with a gun at a screening of the film and introduced himself. In addition to suggesting the blog as a way to promote the film, Chioke came up with the concept of the videoskits. I helped him write some of them but he produced, directed and edited them entirely on his own. I'm enormously proud of his accomplishment, particularly the Gina Gershon Sex tape which has now received over 145,000 hits on YouTube.
To Mona from The Illustrious Steve Buscemi: you offered brisk, slap-in-the-face advice right from the beginning that woke me up to the artistic obligations of blogging like a brisk slap in the face. Not to mention the long hours we spent via email one night as you helped me solve an excruciating computer problem. Thank you so much for your humor, patience and support.
To Chris W, the very first commenter on the blog: your efforts to try and get Delirious onto your local screen are heroic. My sincere gratitude and admiration.
To Michele V. aka SpaceBaby; you are a wonder. All the help you gave by sending Delirious fliers to your contact lists was extraordinary. No less invaluable to me was the straight out, straight up sincerity of your faith and encouragement. Bless you. You introduced me to the indomitable Alex Green who lead me through an exciting and detailed interview for his website, Caught In The Carousel. Thanks for the helping hand, Alex. It's been great sharing music and ideas with you.
To Will Crewdson; what a treat to have met you. I still can't believe you called the UK distributor on my behalf to question them about the DVD release. You are clearly an extremely gifted musician and I know we're going to be hearing more from you. The UK distributor plans a DVD-only release sometime in February.
To David Aaron; I know you're in a tough position being an investor in Gestation but your clear, straightforward interest in the chain of events was very much appreciated. Same goes for my friend Rite as well as UpperWestSide Guy and his wife Olive. Thank you.
To David Edelburg: you wrote a letter to a snarky critic on behalf of the film earning my sincere gratitude and admiration.
To Kevin Avery and to Rick at Filmlinker: you both were incredibly generous in drawing attention to the blog on your own sites. I thank you and I wish you both the best. Keep up the good work. I extend the same gratitude to Kunal Gulati and Sujewa Ekanayake for also sharing this blog with their own readers.
To Sarah, Damien, Jessica, Victor M in Spain, Harald and his wife in Zurich, the writer Andy Zeffer, the mysterious Skippy Michaels, Nick Detisch and his twin filmmaking brother, Em See Jay in London, Mark TK and Dave Brandler: it has been a real pleasure hearing from you all and getting to know you a little bit.
Post Parting Thoughts
Let me take a moment here and clear up a few, shall we say, exaggerations. Hugh Hefner did screen, and enjoy, Delirious at the Playboy Mansion but, sadly I was not there. I am astounded at the number of people who actually thought I was. It shows either the enormous power of my writing or the enormous willingness of the population to believe utter silliness; either way it may prompt me to start my own religion, write my own Holy Babble and instruct the masses to send me enormous checks every week.
Come on now, people! Did you really think I was sitting in the Grotto with Hugh Hefner wearing a fluorescent orange thong, getting stoned and watching Kevin Costner's toupee float by!? Fer christ's sake!
Also, I am NOT on medication. I should be, but I'm not. The need to address this misconception comes after meeting a friend on the street who's been reading the blog. "So, are the pills from Dr. Owen helping?" he asked with such sincere, infuriating sympathy I wanted to punch him. There is no Dr. Owen, you idiot. And if there was there is nothing he could prescribe that would help me. The best medication for me right now is to get another movie going but if anyone has any liquid Demerol/Valium please send it along.
To my friends at Gestation. Six years is a long time to work on a film. In that time a gigantic reservoir of energy built up; a huge roiling mass of hopes, dreams and expectations born of exhaustingly hard work. Not finding a release in theaters this energy had to go somewhere. I'm sorry if the fictitious form it found in this blog offended you. It was either that or homicide.
To Michael Pitt, real or otherwise. Your performance in Delirious is amazing. I had nothing to do with it of course; everyone knows I was asleep on the sidewalk during all of your scenes. But, I'm sorry you took offense at the video skit we did poking some good-natured fun at the whole publicity thang. If anyone was demeaned in any of the skits it was ME. You may notice I'm on my knees in every single one of them, begging, conniving, lying and betraying every principle I've ever had in a frantic effort to keep the film alive. I come off as a desperate dickwad and the comments are there on YouTube to prove it. And once again, I must thank Chioke Nassor for tricking me into doing this.
To Steve Buscemi and Gina Gershon. Thank you both for your willingness and generosity in doing the skits with us. I had a blast with you. Doing the videos kept me from going completely insane. Watching them now I have only more respect and admiration for your talent.
I will be writing more posts every now and then so please do keep checking in. I just won't be able to do it as regularly as I have been. They don't tell you keeping a blog is a full-time job. I'm exhausted.
I guess I did get a little kkkccrrazscy in these pages. But really, was I any more crazy than my fantasy friends at Gestation who cut off all communication just as the film was being released? How sane is excommunication? Some postulate it is the most destructive thing human beings can do to each other with the sole exception of murder. Just look at the great use the Catholic Church has made of it.
I hold no grudges. All I ever wanted was for people to see the film and for Gestation to make money. I'm sorry it didn't work out. But I will say this: fighting for something you believe in is never wrong. I will never stop doing it.
Great to hear from you.
I am still here. You should read forward; there a quite a few more posts that I started again after this one.
I’m sorry you missed Delirious. It showed at the SF Film Festival last year. It has been released on DVD. Again, if you read through some of the more recent blogs you’ll be able to follow that development.
Thanks so much for your kind words and support.
I like your eye. I try to put in as many details as I can, given the time and budget. I’ve always felt it is these intricate layers of significance that help give a film meaning. The trick is to not get too hung up on them because then you could spend 2 years doing one shot.
But, yeah–things sitting on tables. Shelly’s earrings. Everything seen in the film has the potential to add to the story. I see life a certain way I guess and I just try to portray it that way in my films. I find beauty in odd things. And, I love trying to find the specific beauty in each film.
It is not that expensive to do, once you have a sense of what your eye is telling you.
My best to you. I hope you find a copy of Delirious somewhere.
Thanks for writing in. I will keep my chin up. Don’t worry. I guess I wouldn’t feel so frustrated if I felt the film was a piece of crap. It is much harder to see something that has some actual value being treated so carelessly and stupidly by its own distributors.
I loved being in France this year doing the promotion for Delirious. I met many people and had long, detailed conversations about their reactions to the film. One guy said he was disappointed because the film did not have sections of Black&White the way Oblivion did.
I was surprised to see the extent that people knew Oblivion. I’m so glad you liked the Real Blonde. I think it has some very fine work in it by a lot of people.
Which actor have we directed together?
i’ve been a fan since ‘living in oblivion’ (here called ‘ça tourne à manahttan , or ‘it’s being shot in manhattan’, a typicallyterrible French title, though you seem quite loved here….)
We’ve even directed one of the same actors…
‘The Real Blonde’ (‘une vraie blonde’) is a real classic…
Keep your chin up,
Yes, you never can tell in this business. I certainly was thrown for a loop by what happened with Delirious. You should check out the official Delirious site (www.deliriousthemovie.com) and just glance at some of the recognition the film had garnered before its “release”. Any other independent film with that kind of support would have eagerly ushered into the marketplace. Not so with my bunch.
Anyway, the DVD is next; set to come out mid March.
Nice chatting with you.
Great to hear from you. I am extremely pleased you enjoyed some of the ramblings here. I did too. Not all of them. In some ways I’m still in a state of shock as to how Gestation handled the theatrical “release”. But, I fought my fight. It helped having readers and supporters like you.
I’ll be back.
It gives me great pleasure to see Delirious just below Another Gay Movie on the Spanish Box Office charts.
Perhaps you are right that the pirated version Damien is referring to is a porno movie. I did make a porno version of the film that included sex scenes that have never before been filmed by human beings. These scenes are so extraordinary, so beautiful, so magnificently artistic, so spiritual and so filthy and perverted that I know I should get my picture on the cover of one or two cinema magazines with the word “Genius” written in big red letters.
TIDELAND Canada-Reino Unido 6.974 43.022,70 €
OFFSIDE Irán 7.403 39.691,44 €
TENEMOS UN PROBLEMA GORDO Francia 7.069 38.991,37 €
13 TZAMETI Francia-Georgia 7.312 37.984,45 €
LA GANADORA Estados Unidos 7.003 37.209,40 €
RIVER QUEEN Reino Unido-Nueva Zelanda 7.288 37.019,65 €
ANOTHER GAY MOVIE Estados Unidos 6.316 36.311,70 €
DELIRIOUS Estados Unidos 6.444 35.845,01 €
RECORTES DE MI VIDA Estados Unidos 6.325 33.079,65 €
UN BUDA Argentina 5.561 32.809,90 €
HISTORY BOYS Reino Unido 5.898 31.543,59 €
BOY CULTURE Estados Unidos 5.275 31.059,23 €
I just forwarded the address to my financiers to at least alert them as to what’s going on.
The official DVD is going to be great though, with some cool extras, so hold out for it, me brotha.
Thanks for the tip.
Do mean it is for sale on the web? Can you forward me the link and I’ll bust a cap in their ass?
Don’t know what you’ll think about this, or if you already know, or if you’ll want to know, but your movie is on the net–in spanish! I don’t know how people get stuff on the intenet before the movies even seem to be in production. I guess it goes to show that people wanted to really see this movie. And no “theatrical lobotomy” was going to stop them. Just too bad it couldn’t be turned into a source of revenue for you, for the time being.
The most amazing thing to me is that you went away to midterms and came back to this blog. It is precisely this that causes me the most regret about slipping away from Delirious. As I said to Olive, there is nothing else I can do to help the film. Gestation has effectively given the film a lobotomy theatrically. There are already signs the DVD release will be no different.
I’ll be writing in from time to time though.
What a wonderfully sweet note. Thanks so much. You’re making it hard for me to ease away from this thing. I grew very attached to sharing my thoughts with you all. But, the truth is there is not much else I can do or say about Delirious. I’m so immensely thrilled that you still have your ticket stubs. You can count yourselves as two of the lucky few who got to see the film on the screen, and as two people to whom I will always be indebted.
I’ll be back.
all the best.
And, seriously, thanks for the integrity; you’re a bloodless diamond.
I’ll check back, time to time. Look forward to Delirious and all the rest.
Good to hear from you. Thanks for the tip on the new Johnette Napolitano cd. It is pretty amazing. And your guitar work on “Scarred” perfectly completes the song. I can see why they wanted/needed your talent on it.
I love your English, my friend. “Mousehole” is superb. I don’t know that much Spanish but I do think the word “chica” is one of the most delightful words in any language.
Tom, you are the absolute master and I will continue watching your movies in the cinema, in the television, in the Playboy Mansion, in the jail, in my mousehole, anywhere. I take off my hat before you. One more time, thank you.
And If I see somebody trying to download one of your films by the internet I give him/her a beating.
Thank your for writing. Dito is a great friend of mine and a wonderfully talented filmmaker. He told me he stole a DVD of Living In Oblivion in Berlin and is providing copies to select cinephiles with the proper papers.